ආව එවුන්

Saturday, February 5, 2011

Dear diary..3.(what would i do??)

life was always been easy for me. i've never been taken any hard choices.i had everything even before i expected.but with the time i've been realized that now it's the time to  take rough choices.

Actually there's junction ahead.one way will lead me to my dream. it's what i wanted since i can remember. And i hope i'll look better in "Browns".If I choose this way i'll be on my own. and this is what my heart says to go....

the other leads me nowhere i know.I meant the other end of this way is a dark and blinked area.It cannot be predicted.even for a great ist class magician.
But everyone i've loved, every person  who loves me have showed me the second option.

there won't be a turn back.

I've gone crazy dude.I never felt guilty and regret in these twenty years of my life. And I also don't want them in future..

"Will i suffer?"

I don't believe in faith.But i do believe in God. He'll never push me down.He've always been good to me.

And everyone born here has a special duty for him to be done before we left here."

I just wanna tell you dear  friendly diary.

"I don't ever wanted  my life so complicated."

"this is the only week that i felt too hard to breath"

bye for now...


catch you later..

"And i also don't wanna regret in future episodes."



dear diary (episode 2)

i was wondering how fate is kidding with us?
some people call it as the bad luck.. but i don't believe in luck.
in these days most of the things won't work with luck..
in everything it needs the strong recommendations from huge people.
if you know some one big the luck will automatically find you...

as i know if we were in Singapore, we dont need to give any gifts to make our things done..
but we must remember that this isn't a Singapore.
the main reason for that popular secret is the poorness of the middle class people. even though they got a normal bachelor degree you wont be able to get a job for a basic above 20 thousand rupees. but practically it's not enough   for a young person , because they have to move on with the global development. they have to party and rock their lives...

and for the ones who cannot afford their cost of living they have another choice to continue their lives. they can be a monk. all the accommodations and the social respect will be yours..

but it wont be easy, you'll have to learn all the things attached with the religious background.you have to do speeches about the religion and you must have to go through the society.If  you got famous after some years,then you can change your track, you can do politics and there will be the salute from the people who wear uniforms, you'll have many advantages.

the world have been more complicated than our elders time.We have to select a way out of thousands, or may be more..Even we got the correct match, there will  be a huge competition.

dear diary i haven't got anyone to discuss this with.i'm feeling like i am a bird. the things i got inside had been freed.

bye bye friend...
catch you later...

dear diary 1

life is a poem, it always repeats some phrases again and again, just like some meetings with special people. in every time we meet them they've always change the attitude we have about them. sometimes we feel how wrong we were...and i had the same feeling today..
there was a girl who i used to see about thousand time when i was doing my advanced level..
she was some special for me but i didn't know why in that time..
i thought she was so proud.
but when i met her today at the road she smiled with me, it wasn't just a smile.. it came through her heart. she is so innocent. when i asked some questions she answered to me in the same ways she used to speak with her friends..
this isn't a journal to tell you my private things and to sell my dignity for a damn article.it's just a try to tell you how strange life is.
sometimes we see somethings it really wasn't there. i do believe in ghosts but i dont believe in human. most of the ghosts do evil to us..but we do knows that.. but we cannot understand human from the way they appear.that's why they are more dangerous.
when the moon goes down we used to get up and we go to sleep with the appearance of the moon.
but there are people who work during the night while the others are sleeping comfortably.
they may have done sins in there past lives but they are also people.what do we think about them .
have ever thought about them..???
there was another topic which troubled me in the evening..
Does true love exist ???
no i dont think so .. because true love isn't practical.
love is a think we used to believe. but we all must have to love..we all must have a partner to bread our kind..to help each other and to care about other..
technically i'm not agree with the word "girl friend"...because it's  just a word we have in our dictionary.. i like to call  it as a " life companion."
and the life companion must be in the same social status or any matching type..
but here's the most terrible thing that our youngsters do.. it's letting the companion to decide his fate..
i've said this before in my previous note...
"too much of anything is good for nothing"
we must have a life companion, but we also have to get our lives up. when you give too much effort to your affair it only slows you down..
 we always wanna to be who we are .. that's a thing we all forget.
time's worthy friends. this is the time to earn something and do something...
i am also not doing anything. i'm also wasting time with this hell website..
then i have to get rid of this...
i feel sleepy got to go..
dear diary..
i'll see you tomorrow....

(tell what's your idea about the things that i've mentioned..)


"ඔයා මට කොච්චර ආදරේද අසංක?"

"මොකද එකපාරටම?"

"නෑ.මට දැනගන්න ඕන."

"ඇයි කවුරුත් මුකුත් කිව්වද?"


"එහෙනම්?.කෙල්ලට මාව අවිස්වාසද?"

"මටත් වඩා.මමීටත් ඩැඩීටත් වඩා විස්වාසයි."

"ඉතින් එහෙනම් අහන්නේ?"

"අනේ කියන්නකෝ.ඔච්චර නපුරුවෙන්නෙ ඇයි?"
(අනේ පව්.තවම සුදු මූණ බෙරිකරගෙන,දුකේ බෑ.)

"මෙච්චරක් ආදරෙයි කියල පෙන්නන්න ආදරේ හුගාක් වැඩී දරුවෝ"
(කලබලෙන් මගේ අත ඒ අත් අස්සෙ හිරකරන් උරේ ඔලුව තියාගත්ත.)

(නිහැඩියාවක මිනිත්තු කීපයක් ගෙවෙයි)

"මේ අසංක."


"අපි ඉක්මනට බදිමු"

"මට හරිහමන් රස්සාවකුත් නැතුව?"

"ඔයා ඩැඩීගෙ බිස්නස් වලට ජොයින් වෙන්න"

"ඔයාව මට හිගමනට ගන්න බෑ බබා.ඔයාට අපි විඳින දුක දැක්කම....."
(සුසුමක් හෙලමින්)

"ඇයි මොකෝ නැවැත්තුවේ?"

"තව ටික දවසක් ඉවසන්න සන්දීපනී "

" නෑ නෑ නෑ ..කියන්න හදපු කථාව ඉවරකරන්න."

"සුරංගනාවියො අපායට පියාඹන්නේ නෑ දරුවෝ"

(ඇගේ කෙහෙරැලි වලින් නික්මි සුවදින් මම පපුව පුරවගත්තා.)